Land of Temtation
This is not a poetic and inspiring piece of mine, this is what I feel now through the words that I am told to say. This my not appear to be as glorifying as some of my other pieces, yet know this. I am telling you my current story now; I am not perfect and I am not strong enough to do this on my own.
Please Pray for me, so that I may have strength to fight to stay alive and save those around me…..
A new place that I have begun to call home has lied to me from the start. As I do my best to follow the righteouspath I find myself straying off, even though slightly, more and more. Satin’s grip is strong on this place, and his claws have begun to sink into my sides. I fight with all I have, reluctant to call for help since I am so ashamed. I know how to get out but am not willing to lose what little I have here. There is little for me to hold on to and I feel myself slipping. The Temptor has found weaknesses of mine, and is targeting them so he can hold me back. Everything is just so new and strange, I have yet to find a way to fight back in a place that my old weapons do not work. How am I to stay on the path and bring others to it if I have no way of relating to them? The Lord gives me strength, but only if I ask and I am stubborn.
My comrades of my past cannot help me now, the cannot be reached for help so easily, and even then they know not of my situation. I am being torn, staying on the path without the slightest weave away, or walking off the path to get closer to those not on it. If I never leave the path then I feel that I will never be able to reach out to others to carry them onto the path with me. If I leave the path then I will be able to grab hold of them, yet at the same time I will have to carry them farther to return to the path. Though I can be very transparent, I do not want them to be scared away.
I feel as if I cannot complete both of my tasks. One part of me screams to remain stern on the path of righteousness and another pleasethat I will take two steps away so that I can help those who are wondering in the dark. I must learn to do both, as my commanders have taught me, as they still continue to. I do not have all of the information for my mission, so I am scared of what I may find. As I reach out to them I may only push them that much farther away. My greatest fear is not completing this task of which I have been given. It is all or nothing, and only the result matters. Will I make it to the end? Is this goodbye?
Bro, all I can say is that you are a warrior in God’s army now, and you’re one God has found capable, though you may find weakness in your own flesh, to have the calling to be a captain in the army of God.
I’m inspired by reading the powerful, and most of all, very strong writing you’re doing, because it shows one who has entered the service of God in a powerful, bold, and self-sacrificing manner, and it’s exemplary to anyone who hears your story!!
Hold on to what you already know, and God will show you how to reach out to the lost (whether they call themselves Christians or not) without compromising yourself.